Sunday, April 25, 2010
when we were children
my cousin asks me if i still play the violin. we used to play music together. now he's a musician, a professional and i am just a girl who stopped. i shake my head. "not anymore," i say but i say it without shame or guilt because he's smiling at me with fondness. he believes in me. he will teach me what he knows and together we will play again like we did when we were children.
Thursday, April 08, 2010
always
the new rooms are better than what i am used to
large with windows that overlook
black wires that cut a sad steady sky
these inherited uninhabited interchangeable rooms
i choose one and lose it so that i am always lost
everything shifts and i can see only up to a foot ahead of me
this labyrinth is in my mind
to foster this fear that is in me like my prayed-for child
even as i try i must find a room
any room that is familiar or one that feels safe
so i can sleep
large with windows that overlook
black wires that cut a sad steady sky
these inherited uninhabited interchangeable rooms
i choose one and lose it so that i am always lost
everything shifts and i can see only up to a foot ahead of me
this labyrinth is in my mind
to foster this fear that is in me like my prayed-for child
even as i try i must find a room
any room that is familiar or one that feels safe
so i can sleep
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