I am the New April

True, it may seem like a stretch
but it's thoughts like this that catch
my troubled head when you're away
and I'm missing you to death.
- Iron and Wine

My blockmates are quite hysterical about the fact that I have not attended a single meeting of Biology and have now exceeded my allowed number of absences. I try to explain that this class is totally unnecessary. Let's not panic, we've graduated, remember? No, no, they say. That ceremony was made void because I spent most of the time smoking the the bathroom with TL and other smokers who were in self-exile. This strikes a chord. Guilty as charged. Oh god. I am the new April.

So where were you, they ask. I was looking for someone. And as soon as I say that I realize I was looking for someone. Who? Who was it that I was looking for? I was missing him to death. My blockmates stare at me and wait for me to explain why I was gone, who I was looking for, what I plan to do about my excess absences. I suddenly feel so, so sleepy and so, so exhausted. I can't even bring myself to say his name.